Why?   Why?  Why?  

Why do I have so many near-death experiences?   Why do I always survive?  

I am not Bruce Willis in Die-Hard, why do I have to go through so much?  

Whenever you know you might be killed, this stupid adrenaline will pump up to your brain.   At that moment, everything seems so slow, you feel like you have all the time in the world.   Your parents, your friends, your love-ones, good times, bad times, guild, pride, all flow around your mind.   Your thoughts will be so damn clear, and regrets coming after you realized some low-B actions you did in the past.   You start thinking about your life, thinking about how meaningless you had live your life each day.   You dream of various better futures if things were not done the way they were done.   Then you finally realized the things you really want and treasure. 

Imagine yourself in that situation, several times.....   and you'll become me.