I am so tired.   Reporting is supposed to be doing work after month-end.   Why am I so busy both before and after?   and to top that, assignment was due this week, plus final exam is coming up in 2 weeks.   Everyday, I have to reconcile a pile of figures, then at night, I had to read those stupid cases to understand the definition of some very simple words, such as "buyer, seller, condition, warantee, etc".   Been for 3hrs per day only.   2 years ago, I thought sleeping 4hrs is the lowest I would ever get, but I was wrong, seriously wrong.   How can anyone survive in this kind of environment?

I have no life at all. 

The reason I came back to this city was that I wanted to build my family here.   But with the job and girls being so demanding, I don't see it coming for another 10yrs.   And don't even mention about having a baby, it might just never gonna to happen.   My value with most ppl living in this city is just too different, we are like in the opposite ends of the world, eventhough the world has no ends, in reality.  

Life is so meaningless now.